My life has been a whirlwind of activity and opportunity as of late. I don’t know what is going on or exactly why but I’m enjoying this ride. The most recent turn of events has me simultaneously excited and scared out of my mind. In a total right-place-right-time turn of events, I may have landed myself a job.
Outside the home.
It was accidental. I haven’t been job-searching or even considering a return to the workforce. I was simply out taking senior portraits for a family friend when the opportunity presented itself. The conversation was amusing as I almost blew the guy off, not taking a close look as I was busy with my camera. I almost didn’t notice that he was the head photographer for our local newspaper; in fact, if he hadn’t introduced himself, I might have acted distant. And blown a big chance. Things progressed and I am to make a Very Important Phone Call in the morning.
Not to mention a Very Important Decision.
I haven’t worked outside the walls of this home since I made my last Very Important Decision to leave the news station and work from home. It was a decision that worked well for us, my freelancing career somehow bringing home more bacon than small town broadcasting ever would have had I stayed on board. I’ve been content here, writing on my couch, for three years (as of two weeks ago; I missed my anniversary date). I have said to FireDad in the past that I would likely go to our local newspaper when the boys were back in school. But I’d be a fool to pass up an opportunity that accidentally presented itself. Right before the holidays.
The pros and cons are bouncing off one another in my head, arguing and mocking with one another. The truth is that the available position is very part-time with room for upward movement and other assignments. If I wait another four and a half years, what will be available? Will I have already shot myself in the foot if I skip out on the deal this time around? On the other hand, do I have enough energy to add another ball to juggle? Do I have enough time? Will I feel guilty for short-changing my kids on a little bit of time? But will they enjoy the perks that come with this particular job if I do take it? And on and on and on. Back and forth. Round and round.
I don’t know why I’m rambling. I’ll make the aforementioned Very Important Phone Call in the morning. I’ll attend the interview. I’ll accept the position if it is offered. And we’ll make it work. I don’t know the hows and whyfores of making it work exactly. In fact, I don’t even know why I have been blessed with such an amazing opportunity. (In fact, I don’t even know why this is just one in a series of Very Awesome Opportunities that have landed at my feet in the past three weeks. More on at least one of those in the very near future.) The life we live at this precise second will change a bit but, as with everything, we’ll move forward and roll with the punches.
The leaves of change have been blowing into my life-yard for weeks now.
And I’m ready. Let’s go.
(And if I don’t get the position, life remains swell.)
23 Responses to “The Leaves of Change”
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JENA! That is AWESOME news!!
Good luck, with all the changes.
Twitter: firemom
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Thanks!
Congratulations! I always think the best opportunities are the ones that pop up when you aren’t looking. You’re going to rock it no matter what!
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Twitter: firemom
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I would have to agree with you. Some of the best things in my life showed up when I wasn’t looking. (Hi, Husband!)
Congrats, seriously! I admit to being jealous… but only a tiny bit. Mostly I’m just happy for you.
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Well that’s a nice problem to have. Congrats! And good luck!
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Isn’t it? Internal conflict about a job makes me realize how very lucky and blessed I am and our family is at this time.
Very cool! Good luck with the very important phone call!
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Twitter: firemom
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The Very Important Phone Call went well. My interview is at 10:15 on Monday morning. YIKES!
That is totally amazing!! Congratulations!!
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Thank you!
Awesome, what an opportunity, you are so blessed!
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Twitter: firemom
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Thank you. I do feel very blessed.
I hope you can make the right decision. Sounds like you have a great opportunity here. Hang in there and let us all know how it goes!
Twitter: firemom
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I’m planning a deep, panicked, introspective and worried post on Monday morning as my interview is at 10:15. I have a lot of soul searching to do this weekend!
What a great chance at an opportunity. It’s wonderful that you have the chance, even if you don’t take it! Options are fantastic!
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Twitter: firemom
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You bring up a good point: “options are fantastic!” I couldn’t have said it better. Thank you.
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Go you!! And I loooove that picture of the tree….it looks like she is ready to shake her thing and make all her leaves shake and shimmy to the ground.
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Twitter: firemom
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That picture is a new favorite of mine. I’m thinking of printing out some of my fall pictures and framing them on a wall. Which wall, though, I don’t know!
AHHHHHHHHH! Everyone is being so nice….I want more details! I’m sorry I missed coffee today of all days!
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Twitter: firemom
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Muahaha! You’ll never know! Unless the interview goes well.
Whenever I read updates about your work life, I think of a book I read a long time ago called, _Creating a Life Worth Living_. You have done an amazing job of juggling and working in several areas of interest. So many people dream of living lives that challenge and inspire them, but never take any action. I believe these opportunities pop up for you, because you’re up everyday pursuing your interests, even when it’s a struggle. Congratulations, Firemom!
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Caryn; Wow. What a lovely comment! Gave me chills and kind of made me teary eyed. I plan on writing some about my internal dread on Monday morning as my interview is at 10:15 that day. I’ve got a lot of inner conflict going on right now but your comment gives me the strength to know that, in the end, I will make the right decision. Thank you for the encouragement today!